2 Years LATER

      Words may often not describe the way that you feel about a certain thing or a certain person. But I guess that is pretty natural. In fact no words can describe what true or eternal love is. I just often wonder why people get so caught up in it. When you love someone, I guess it can come easy for some, and hard for others. For me I think it is easy to find fault in people. But for me it is easy to love someone, cause I first look for the good. Its kinda funny though how when we love our heart is full. But when our hearts are broken they get torn and bruised. And healing takes so long. I have been through many relationships where I have realized this principle. That at the end of each relationship it takes time to heal. My first came when I was a sophomore in High school. Living the dream with a junior girl who loved me for me. She took me in and cared for me. She took my heart and my hand and we ran together. When I was with her I felt alive. I felt like I could do anything. I felt truly happy. We were together for a long time too...and then the unexpected happened. And she decided that I was not good enough for her. She left me alone in the rain, sitting there in the road...I was broken, I was bruised, I was torn. When It came time to mend my broken heart. The scares are still there, yes. But I never knew it would take long. Well before I knew it, I decided I just needed to move on. I needed to take the time I lost and give it someone else. Well I did. My junior year was different. I decided first off that I wouldn't fall in love again, because well, it hurt too much. But..what do expect when you are too swift to fall in love again. Like I said, I fall too fast. So I did. This girl was different though. I truly felt a new life. She cared for me. She supported me. She loved me...And then something happened inside of me. Instead of being heart broken I changed. I noticed a liking to a new girl. I noticed that I may be happier with this other one. So the heart break was given to another this time. I was truly heart broken myself by what I did. But I knew that it was the right thing.
     Well my senior year whirls around the corner, and that is when I truly realize a new. I see that this girl is totally different. The true love of my life. We go on the first date...which actually wasn't supposed to be a date, and it went so well. I believe that we go fishing. And at the same time I was gaining a liking to her. I was loosing the liking to the other. There truly is something unique about this girl that I went on the date with....Wow what a change happened. So after dealing the heart break to someone else. I fall so hard for this new girl. She is everything I need. Everything I ever wanted. She is everyone combined. She is the One...I don't know why but time was not on our side. We did like everything together. Time seemed to accelerate, as we neared graduation. We talked so much about the future. She knew that I would be going on a mission for 2 years and she would be going to school. So yes we were going our separate ways. We both knew it would be hard. But we put our trust in the Lord. So over the summer, I dated many girls. I finally was able to get around. That was the best thing in the world getting around. I have options now, when I return and will be looking for an eternal companion.
      About 3 weeks ago, I received and email from this girl. She informed me about somethings and that she had totally moved on. I was once again heart broken but this time in a different way. I knew that she had moved on and that we were not meant to be. I knew that we had put our trust in the Lord and that everything is going to work out the way it needed to.
      So love comes in many different ways. But when the true love comes, that is when you need to dedicate yourself to it. I regret a few things from my high school years. But I know that God is watching over me, and directing me in everything I do.

       So now TWO YEARS LATER, I miss loving someone. I miss the feel of having someone in my arms. I can't wait for that day again. Where I can find my true love. where we can be together forever.