12:24 am. 

What am I truly passionate about? What are things that truly make up who I am today? Why is it so hard to figure out what you want to do for a career? 

 6:30 am I fall asleep, 2:30 I wake up and finally get going for the day. But then I am tired come 6:30pm. So I nap. I often don't sleep. My mind scrambled.

I want to support my wife. I want to support my family. I want to be happy. I want to do something I love. I want to be in the right place at the right time. I don't want to make it hard for my wife. She is amazing and am I doing enough for her. I'm hungry. Have I eaten enough food today? What if I choose a career that my wife doesn't like? 

And on, And on, And on. so I have to go to my happy place. I put my headphones in, and close my eyes. 

I've gotta keep the calm before the storm
I don't want less, I don't want more
Must bar the windows and the doors
To keep me safe, to keep me warm. 

Yeah, my life is what I'm fighting for 
Can't part the sea, cant reach the shore
and my voice becomes the driving force 
I won't let this pull me overboard

God, Keep my head above water
Don't let me drown, it gets harder 
Ill met you there at the altar
As I fall down to my knees 
Don't let me drown, drown, drown, 
Don't let me, don't let me, don't let me drown

So pull me up from down below 
'Cause I'm underneath the below 
come dry me off and hold me close 
I need you now, I need you most

God, Keep my head above water

Don't let me drown, it gets harder 

Ill met you there at the altar

As I fall down to my knees 

Don't let me drown, drown, drown, 

Don't let me, don't let me, don't let me drown

Keep my head above water, above water

And I can't see in the stormy weather
I can't seem to keep it all together
And I, I can't swim the ocean like this forever
and I can't breathe

God, Keep my head above water 
I lose my breath at the bottom 
Come rescue me, Ill be waiting 
I'm too young to fall asleep. 

God, Keep my head above water 
Don't let me drown, It gets harder 
I'll meet you there at the altar
As I fall down to my knees 

Don't let me drown
Don't let me drown
Don't let me drown
Keep my head above water, above water. 

Don't tell me that I am the only one that feels like this. 

These questions sink deep into my soul. My mind races. I always wanted to succeed. I always wanted to accomplish things in my life. But why is it so hard to think I haven't. Why does thoughts of discouragement just come into my mind?

The halls of my mind full.  My heart Heavy. 

One Day

One day

One day someone will walk into your life and get it right. 

One day someone will walk into your life and You will realize why it never worked out with anyone else.

One day you won’t have to wait for the “right one.”

One day you won’t be the only one to try.

One day you won’t be the only one giving your 100%. 

One day you will finally meet someone who knows you better then yourself. 

One day you’ll finally meet someone who isn’t afraid to take another chance. 

One day you’ll finally meet someone you can trust and that trusts you. 

One day you’ll have your best friend, your biggest help and your teammate all wrapped up into one person. 

One day it will seem like your whole world got tossed upside down. 

One day you’ll have that person that hugs you so tight that all your broken pieces get put back. 

One day you’ll have someone that chooses you as much as you choose them.

One day you’ll love someone as much as I love someone. 

That’s when you’ll know you are home. 

How Can You say you Know me.

How can you say you know me.
When all you see is my skin,
And not the overgrown world inside,
Thats growing deep within.

How can you say you know me.
When all you see is my surface,
And not the unpleasant views inside,
Thats planted deep within.

How can you say you know me,
When all you see is my coating,
And not the ranging rapids,
That touchers deep within.

How can you say you know me
When all you see is my bark,
And not the overrun carnage
Thats buried deep within.

How can you say you know me
When all you see is my varnish
And not the indescribable pain,
That entombs deep within.

How can you say you know me
When all you see is my skin,
And not the overgrown world inside,
Thats growing deep within.